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Change of plans | #amwriting

I haven't updated my blog in a month. I've promised myself to be consistent. I've decided to do it the right way this time. I even had nearly finished drafts of blog posts waiting to be published. And still I haven't made an effort to polish them off and update my blog.

I can think of many excuses for why I've failed to stick to my own commitments. But the truth is... I wasn't even thinking about my blog in the last month. I didn't feel the need to update it.

I've only started blogging here a few months ago, so it's not like I'm ditching a serious project. I'm not yet serious here with this blog. It's just a place for me to let out some steam and practice my English writing. So I won't let the fact that I haven't updated for a month worry me too much.

I was thinking about the bar that I was trying to set for this blog. I came up with a few interesting ideas for it, like the DLS. But I'm not that sure that I really want to write that. I like the idea, but there are other things I want to work on, that are more important for me in the long run. And I think that my blog should reflect that. I should learn to let go of interesting ideas and stop trying to juggle a few projects at the same time.

I don't want to let this blog become another stress factor for me. So for now I don't know if I'll be updating it regularly or at all. I just know that if I feel like writing and publishing a blog post or two, I'll do it without any feeling of guilt or regret.

Another thing that I wanted to talk about was this whole #amwriting thing that some of you may have noticed from my twitter feed. And I think I've mentioned it once here too... I'm working on a novel right now, so some of my blog posts may be about that as well. I think it even might be more interesting than the DLS. That's also one of the reasons why I don't want to make this blog the main focus of my writing. If I ever want to publish this book then I should be writing it instead of weekly blog updates. I want to focus on my real goals and stop distracting myself with side projects all the time.


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